I completely forgot about my last post. I really thought my last post was a reflection of my Ironman failure. I find this very interesting. I came back to this blog to focus on my next training adventure, on this, the Friday night before the Sunday race of the next Ironman in Tempe. I wanted to talk about my potential next adventure. Other shit takes the place though. . .
Interesting turn of events. Lil ole woe is me. I am not acknowledged at work for knowing more than the newbies. Woe is me. Or working more/harder than anyone in my department. I now have a new role at work. People still talk shit. It doesn't matter. Who will they believe? The one who has dealt with the shit yet still tries to move up in the organization? Or the new one who has a 'great attitude?' F that shit. Tell the higher ups what they want to hear. I get shit done. Students graduate. Students are happy. I tell my coworkers what it is and like it is. It is no secret that the "new" team is not as invested as the "old" team. They come to work at 10 am and leave at 6. I arrive at 7 and leave when the work is as done as it can be for the day. It's for the students. They have no commitment to the organization. That was clear from the beginning. Who gets a merit increase? Not me. . . The ones who put in minimal time and effort do. Awesome.
I have a lot of things to feel down about in October and November. The anniversary of the Ironman failure of 2011; the failure of the 'relationship' of 2009; job failures; more race failures; more boyfriend failures-the list goes on.
I really hate October/November.More on this later. I'm too annoyed to deal with it now.
